Take care of yourself

Posted 07-20-2012 at 12:44 AM by Aquarius_Girl
Updated 07-20-2012 at 05:34 AM by Aquarius_Girl

I am very relaxed and happy right now therefore I decided to write
a new blog post.

I have realized the importance of positive mental attitude. I have
realized that I'll have to look after myself rather than being
dependent on someone.

It has been three weeks since I had a proper food. I skipped breakfast
and lunch for three weeks probably due to lack of hunger. It is
summer here. The day time temperature raises to 45C. ACs have nearly
no impact. Probably that was the reason of lack of hunger!?!

Yesterday I collapsed. Simply wasn't able to even walk properly. I
was literally dragging myself. Decided to take a break. I went home
at 14:00 and watched movies and all, and just "relaxed".

I am also suffering from back ache problems for past four months.
The back ache starts only at night. I get cramps - simply can't move
- a kind of small dose of paralyses. Paralyses may be is a too strong
word to be used here - but how else should I describe the situation
when I simply can't move?

You see a lack of proper sleep ruins the day especially when you
haven't slept properly for four months, and because the sleep isn't
proper I am always tired in the morning... There's a deadlock.

So, yesterday I took an appointment with an Orthopedic doctor, and
when we were about to leave I had a fight with ... on a petty issue!
Out of sheer anger and disappointment I decided not to go to the
doctor.

After 5 minutes, for the first time it occurred to me that by cancelling
the appointment because of a fight is simply going to harm me. Me and
only me. I won't be able to walk properly again tomorrow. I'll be tired
tomorrow.
So, if he doesn't care it shouldn't matter to me. If I have to stay
alive, it is only me who'll be caring for myself.

I changed my mind, and got myself checked up. Returned home and
cooked food for myself despite being too tired. I was forcing my mind
to encourage me to work for myself...

Somehow I am happy right now. I have got a fresh mind probably
because I have decided to look after myself now.

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Nice to know you are happy and better

. If "somebody" somehow is not caring for you. Do not let yourself down. Trust me it is your life. You wont get this life again and again. The past moment you wont get again. No matter what happens to you and no matter who it is, nothing will get affected. Dear ones would feel sorrow for 1 or 2 days and life would move on. Everybody would start normal life after couple of days. Only you would suffer. Do not expect too much from anybody. So please take care of yourself. Its your health. Spend some time with friends, also at religious place e.g Guruduwara/Temple. Spend some time there. Definitely things would change for you. Time changes so do not worry and do not think too much.

But i am happy to know that you are feeling better. Its good.Keep this positive attitude up.

. Have good one

Posted 07-24-2012 at 10:00 AM by KinnowGrower KinnowGrower is offline

	Thanks for the "positive" comment. BTW, religious places frighten me. I am an agonist. I wish I had real life friends. I am not a very social person.
	Posted 08-01-2012 at 05:46 AM by Aquarius_Girl

	Quote: Originally Posted by Anisha Kaul I am an agonist. Did you really mean agonist, or agnostic? http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/agonist http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/agnostic
	Posted 08-01-2012 at 03:04 PM by brianL

	Very sorry, I again trusted the Firefox spellchecker. Of course it is: "Agnostic". Actually, today I have decided to turn off this spellchecker off. My English is getting poorer due to the dependence on the spellchecker.
	Posted 08-01-2012 at 09:14 PM by Aquarius_Girl

	No need to apologise, whatsoever. "Agonist" could have been appropriate, given that you were torn between looking after yourself and being dependent on others.
	Posted 08-02-2012 at 07:09 AM by brianL

Brian, did you find this `blog` too difficult to read because of the
hard line breaks?

Posted 08-24-2012 at 01:52 AM by Aquarius_Girl

	Quote: Originally Posted by Anisha Kaul Brian, did you find this `blog` too difficult to read because of the hard line breaks? LOL. Yes. Very difficult. A real struggle. You've been reading certain threads in the Slack forum, I see.
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:29 AM by brianL

	Quote: Originally Posted by brianL LOL. Yes. Very difficult. A real struggle. Are you serious? Actually, what I have read is that more than or less than, 10 words per line, proves to be a strain for human eyes.
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:36 AM by Aquarius_Girl

	Quote: Originally Posted by Anisha Kaul Are you serious? Actually, what I have read is that more than or less than, 10 words per line, proves to be a strain for human eyes. Serious? With "LOL" and a in my comment?
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:43 AM by brianL

Well, the way people were complaining in that thread, I did think
for a second that you might be serious.

Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:48 AM by Aquarius_Girl

	No, that eloi was getting irritating with his rambling posts, and the hard line breaks made it worse. So I thought a bit of mockery was called for. I've just posted something in your "pushups and muscles" thread.
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:53 AM by brianL

	Quote: Originally Posted by brianL I've just posted something in your "pushups and muscles" thread. I am in office, and that something was about to get me in an embarrassing position. I clicked that link, and someone opened the door behind me. Thankfully I managed to quickly switch the tab! . .
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 03:59 AM by Aquarius_Girl Updated 08-24-2012 at 04:00 AM by Aquarius_Girl

I should have mentioned it was NSFW.

Posted 08-24-2012 at 04:18 AM by brianL

	Quote: Originally Posted by Anisha Kaul Brian, did you find this `blog` too difficult to read because of the hard line breaks? I intended to say `this blog too` rather than `too difficult`. Perhaps the proper sentence would have been: Did you find this `blog` too, difficult to read because of the hard line breaks? . . .
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 04:22 AM by Aquarius_Girl Updated 08-24-2012 at 04:24 AM by Aquarius_Girl

	Better: Did you find this blog difficult to read because of the hard line breaks, too? Or even better: Did you find this blog difficult to read, too, because of the hard line breaks?
	Posted 08-24-2012 at 04:38 AM by brianL

Indeed better, and thanks for following up.

Posted 08-24-2012 at 04:41 AM by Aquarius_Girl
No problem.

Posted 08-24-2012 at 04:48 AM by brianL

Quote:

Originally Posted by Anisha Kaul

Thanks for the "positive" comment.
BTW, religious places frighten me. I am an agonist.
I wish I had real life friends. I am not a very social person.

I can understand what you mean. But it is not about places. It is about the people who stays at those places. Lets say, a home is good place. But if people living there are uncivilized. Of-course neighbors wont have good words for the natives of that home. But the same neighbors may have different views for the people in another home in same street or locality. So it means it is all about people not places.

May be in the past you don not have very good experience with that. But it is not always same. Trust me, you may met a person there that can change your whole life. You would be able to see your life with different perspective. It happens to me. I am not saying you can met good people only on religious places. But the chances are more. And the people there may have better experience to explain and understand us.

It wont be out of place to mention that my Family Doctor from North America advice me to do that. Even doctor thinks apart from medicine we need moral support as well.

I went there and i got what i want. I was almost same kind of situation as yours.

Anyway, i would say, take care of yourself. Only you can do that.

Posted 09-16-2012 at 03:59 PM by KinnowGrower KinnowGrower is offline

	Now since we are talking of Religion, did you read this? http://www.linuxquestions.org/questi...gnostic-22841/
	Posted 09-16-2012 at 10:48 PM by Aquarius_Girl Updated 09-16-2012 at 11:34 PM by Aquarius_Girl