Stability is an illusion
Posted 07-18-2010 at 03:46 PM by Mr-Bisquit
Tags bisquit-maker, timey, untimey
I have depression- as is known- and am emotionally unstable.
the actions of going through an attempted suicide become easier and easier everyday.
Let them watch me die. I want the strength to overcome self-preservation.
Thoughts of suicide, animosity, and depression in the Open Source Community? How can this be?
I want to die and not regret, to have someone watch me destroy myself.
I want to sleep and never wake up.
This isn't playing the victim, it's how I feel. I'll be put on stronger medicine or a different kind. ironic how I am allergic to a lot of them but I need some to be stable.
You don't know how I will reply or how I will perceive what you say or write.
"But you're intelligent."
What does that have to do with depression or emotional instability?
"You can make intelligent posts."
And I also try to burn myself alive.
"Don't try that with me."
I'll be glad to give you my health and mental problems for your sarcastic wit.
Think of me as the social reject.
"Why did you post this? Don't you know..."
Yes, I know to some of those questions you may ask.
I posted this because I am human.
the actions of going through an attempted suicide become easier and easier everyday.
Let them watch me die. I want the strength to overcome self-preservation.
Thoughts of suicide, animosity, and depression in the Open Source Community? How can this be?
I want to die and not regret, to have someone watch me destroy myself.
I want to sleep and never wake up.
This isn't playing the victim, it's how I feel. I'll be put on stronger medicine or a different kind. ironic how I am allergic to a lot of them but I need some to be stable.
You don't know how I will reply or how I will perceive what you say or write.
"But you're intelligent."
What does that have to do with depression or emotional instability?
"You can make intelligent posts."
And I also try to burn myself alive.
"Don't try that with me."
I'll be glad to give you my health and mental problems for your sarcastic wit.
Think of me as the social reject.
"Why did you post this? Don't you know..."
Yes, I know to some of those questions you may ask.
I posted this because I am human.
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One bridge too far...
Linuxquestions.org tries to be a fun place to be for everybody.
Unfortunately you choose to go down a path this community can not follow.
Until that road winds back to us you are forbidden from posting in your LQ web log and LQ.
LQ members are strongly advised to keep from posting replies to this web log beyond this post.
If anyone has any questions regarding this matter please contact me by email alone.Posted 07-18-2010 at 06:34 PM by unSpawn