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Fooling myself

Posted 03-23-2012 at 03:02 AM by TheIndependentAquarius
Updated 03-23-2012 at 03:19 AM by TheIndependentAquarius

Another problem that I have is that I keep on talking to
myself by visualizing the things that happened in my
Example - Last week I somehow remembered a big incident
that happened in my life 8 years ago when I was in college.
Those college days were very painful for me. Now what I
do is to visualize those moments with those same people
around but with the situation in my favour. I try to
convience those people by telling them what I couldn't
at that time (of course in my loud imagination).
I find myself doing this nearly after every five minutes
(literally). This gives me a kind of immense mental

The cons of this behaviour are:
  • It consumes a lot of energy and time.
  • I always find myself in an imaginary world, and because
    I am always in my imaginary world I feel a mental distance
    between me and my partner. 'Always' here means, in office,
    on scooter, in home, and in kitchen.
    Anyways, his and mine relations in past two years haven't
    been too pleasent.
  • Also, because I keep on repeating this behavior every five
    minutes I cannot complete my important tasks that are required
    for my job, in due time.
  • This behavior is a kind of addiction. I feel as if I am
    over powered by it. Can't tell my brain to shut up and concentrate
    on the given important task.
I am not social. Don't have real life friends to talk to.
I am not in much good terms with my family too. I think
if I had brilliant relations with my partner and family,
my mind would never go astray.

Something needs to be done, immediately. That's why I thought
of writing this blog. Venting out feelings, and identifying
the problem frees the mind (well, at least mine).
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  1. Old Comment
    Same deal, I just joke around to vent.
    Posted 03-25-2012 at 04:36 AM by DevilFreeBSD DevilFreeBSD is offline
  2. Old Comment
    I was bullied as a child by my own sibling (he was 7 years older than me), and still after all these years, from time to time, find myself imagining beating him up. When this happens, if I am not careful, then leg and arm movement follow, and I forget where I am.

    Now he is dead they have stopped to a large degree, yet even the sadness of loosing him cannot totally wash out the stains that he caused. When however, I blame myself (I was a little brat and tested him beyond his limits) When I blame myself then the bad memories disapear and I find lareg amounts of peace.

    Only you can fix the partner problems, and you must swallow pride and start working on it straight away. Your partner is the most valuable thing in your life. Plan on spending old agr together. Otherwise you may find yourself a very sad and lonely old lady. And I wouldn't wish that on anybody.

    Truth is we all need a friend, and our partner is the best friend we can ever have

    Posted 04-04-2012 at 05:07 PM by Desdd57 Desdd57 is offline
  3. Old Comment
    Venting is good.

    One thing I learned a long time ago is that forgiveness is not something one does for others.

    It is something one does for oneself--it is a step to letting go of what cannot be changed.

    It is simple. But it is not easy.
    Posted 05-03-2012 at 09:40 PM by frankbell frankbell is offline


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